我毕业了！

明天！就是我辛苦了五年的毕业典礼！
之前的确是没什么感觉，但今天开始觉得紧张了。。。
虽然不晓得该紧张什么，心里就不由得紧张的侵袭。
有时会期待很多人来祝贺我送我礼物，但有时又希望简简单单默默渡过就是了。
或许也是因为期望看到她收到我的礼物会开心吧。。。
虽然她不会知道是我送的，或说她无需知道是我送的。
重要的是她明天可以开心漂亮！自己心里欣慰就足够了。。。
总而言之，结果如何就看明天吧！哈哈！
穿上那红袍，代表着自己是时候成熟了，是时候学习面对自己所做的一切决定了。
在这里先祝贺自己 “恭喜我毕业了！”
嘻嘻 =)

SENIOR = JUNIOR???

What will you do? When there's someone more senior than you in your workplace but could not perform as a senior? When he is so lack of confidence to plan and decide things but keeps asking boss what to do and getting his instructions only...sighs...even with own colleagues he dont dare to plan and discuss freely but needs boss to call for an internal meeting...3pm inform me 5pm need to complete something when he has all the time he can to tell me...playing busy this few days and when the final submission date comes then start to panic...WHY???...One year working experience and still asking questions where even few months new staff can answer...6 buildings with around 20+ drawings and yet he only do one single drawing...my goodness...so many projects in the company and he does less than 5 drawings...throwing everything to draughtman...while he himself keeps checking email again and again reading emails again and again finding all the easy and light stuff to do...How to deal with this kind of senior? If I were to overpower him its somehow disrespectful...If I were to let it be and dont care so much he is going to drag down the company productivity and also mine...sighs...HOW? WHY? WHAT can I do??...

SATURDAY!

Today is Saturday...I started my day early around 7am to queue for my convocation attire collection...ended up taking 5 hours of my precious weekend...nite time out of nowhere me and my housemates decided to have nasi ayam penyet for dinner...then went off to Johor Premium Outlet bearing a mission to hunt for black coat...surprisingly I got lost and ended up at JUSCO Bukit Indah...lol...so we shopped there instead...and again out of nowhere we thought of having some little alcohol and chit chat back in our house...what a day indeed! now it's time to sleep... =)

钱来钱往

钱来了，转眼间，又走了。
已经只花费在必需品啊，为何还是这么紧戳呢。。。
接下来的几个月会好转吗？。。。
希望吧！。。。 =)

终于开始安顿了。。。

感觉好久好久没写blog了。。。这两个月里都在忙工作，忙找房子，搬家，安顿，忙教会活动，等等。 现在终于算是标了个逗号，可以歇一会儿，回到自己的心里。

不知不觉工作也开始了两个月，慢慢的已经开始接管一些任务。 马来西亚的建筑业的确是称得上所谓的，马来西亚生活方式。 建筑业真的是我达到目标的领域吗？我真的可以从中脱颖而出吗？自己说话技巧不如人，搭关系技巧也不如人，我只是一个小人物，无高官背景，无富家支撑，无商业经验。 这一切一切都让我觉得自己只是在欺骗自己，为一个不可能的任务努力。

未来究竟会如何真的无法预测，很多事往往就在你不经意的当儿发生了。 很多机会也不经意地流失了。 亲情与感情是我以往一直坚守保护的。 现今我只想专注神的事工，事业与家庭。 感情真的可以在我身上出现吗？我不想再被伤害，所以不想再开始另一段感情，但未来我终须组织自己的家庭，现在不去珍惜机会，是否就会因此而失去了呢？