miss.hope.

it's been some time since picking up my guitar and playing anything I feel like to...
singing along with my own lyrics...
becoming a DIY songwriter...
studying architecture is indeed time consuming...and sometimes tiring...
does it mean I do not have passion for it? I certainly do not think so.
I love architecture, I love the effect that architecture can bring to mankind, and I truly wish that I can be an architect who does that with architecture, along with my call to reach out for the poor...

but I am still a human who needs food and rest...
I am still a human who can laugh and cry with emotions...

I miss those times...
. when I can sit in the car by the airport watching planes taking off and landing on...
. traveling to places around the world, looking at different lifestyles, expressions, interactions, activities, architecture, etc..camping with church friends, exploring around and chatting overnight doing crazy stuff...
. following my mum to shopping and dad to work...they are all filled with signs of aging now...Im worried I will lost them one day...

I hope for the times...
. when I can fly myself in one plane one day...
. when I can explore around with my camera capturing all the droplets of life of mankind....
. when building and nature coexists...
. when I can have friends that aren't with me just for the sake of what I can give them... 
. when I can have a soul mate that shares the same frequency as me, be it guy or girl...is it true that guys are harder to share things out? lol
. when I can see the world, or at least Malaysia being a peaceful country with low crime rates and united citizens regardless of culture and background...

these are things that I truly opt for in my life...
all these are the only things able to put a smile in my heart...
but none of them are happening nowadays...
work can be a part of it but should not be the whole...
I need a breakthrough!