除非你没爱过。
如果爱情那么轻易地可以转化为友情，
当
深爱了，回不去了。
December 26, 2011
原来爱可以这么容易放下
Posted in Love
湿着双眼，麻木的双手；
你的冷漠，你的残忍；
让
自信的我，已不再；
喜乐的我，成过去。
塞着双耳，凌乱的思绪；
你的自私，你的欢乐；
把
现在的我，击跨了；
过去的我，从现了。
任性的你，凌乱的你；
自私的你，好玩的你；
我都接受；
但
你却不接受我！
对你来说，
我们的爱究竟是什么？
说放就放，说丢就丢。
我的深情，我的永恒；
都是你的玩具，你的音乐机。
原来这就是你的真爱，
接受一个你心目中的梦想男孩；
原来爱可以这么容易放下，
我做不到。。。
你的冷漠，你的残忍；
让
自信的我，已不再；
喜乐的我，成过去。
塞着双耳，凌乱的思绪；
你的自私，你的欢乐；
把
现在的我，击跨了；
过去的我，从现了。
任性的你，凌乱的你；
自私的你，好玩的你；
我都接受；
但
你却不接受我！
对你来说，
我们的爱究竟是什么？
说放就放，说丢就丢。
我的深情，我的永恒；
都是你的玩具，你的音乐机。
原来这就是你的真爱，
接受一个你心目中的梦想男孩；
原来爱可以这么容易放下，
我做不到。。。
December 25, 2011
Sea, my home - Orang Seletar
Posted in Malaysia
My name is Ayeak
I am 9 years old
I like to swim...
...and play by the beach
I follow my father to the sea...
...to look for fishes
When i grow up...
...I want to be a fisherman
...I will catch fishes and crabs
This is my destiny...
I am orang seletar...
我到底该如何？
Posted in Love
十指在键盘上徘徊许久，不晓得要打什么字，
脑海并非一片空白，却是乌海成片。
我到底怎么了，我到底还能支撑多久？我到底应该怎么做？
面对也不对，逃避也失败；
活着也辛苦，死了又不行。
啊！！！。。。
为什么神一直要我不放弃，她又什么都没感觉到？
是我错了吗？难道神其实是要我放下她？
但为何每次我亲近神都是继续爱她，不要放弃的声音？
一个多月了，我的生活，我的学业，我的一切都搞地一塌糊涂。
我到底要如何走这条路？我们真的会有幸福吗？真爱真的存在吗？
我已经没有信心了，但又放不下，太多的回忆，太多的思念，
去到哪都会想起她，我到底该如何？
我真的不想失去她，不想放下她不管，
我有很多很多的话要和她说，
有很多很多的梦想说好了要一起努力的，
但她却累了，再也感觉不到我的心，
我到底该如何？。。。
脑海并非一片空白，却是乌海成片。
我到底怎么了，我到底还能支撑多久？我到底应该怎么做？
面对也不对，逃避也失败；
活着也辛苦，死了又不行。
啊！！！。。。
为什么神一直要我不放弃，她又什么都没感觉到？
是我错了吗？难道神其实是要我放下她？
但为何每次我亲近神都是继续爱她，不要放弃的声音？
一个多月了，我的生活，我的学业，我的一切都搞地一塌糊涂。
我到底要如何走这条路？我们真的会有幸福吗？真爱真的存在吗？
我已经没有信心了，但又放不下，太多的回忆，太多的思念，
去到哪都会想起她，我到底该如何？
我真的不想失去她，不想放下她不管，
我有很多很多的话要和她说，
有很多很多的梦想说好了要一起努力的，
但她却累了，再也感觉不到我的心，
我到底该如何？。。。
December 18, 2011
你真的走了
Posted in Love
是我习惯了最近的等候;
而你无动于衷;
耳边还都是你曾说过的承诺;
告诉自己不要哭了;
我的世界只剩下我一个;
而你渐渐走了;
你离开的时候没有留下什麽;
我却感受到了许多;
你真的走了;
而我也感觉到累了;
是你离开了剩我一个人了;
你要我忘了;
而我也没有力气了;
你真的走了;
我的世界只剩下我一个;
而你渐渐走了;
你离开的时候没有留下什麽;
我却感受到了许多;
你真的走了;
而我也感觉到累了;
是你离开了剩我一个人了;
你要我忘了;
而我也没有力气了;
你真的走了;
你真的走了;
而我也感觉到累了;
是你离开了剩我一个人了;
你要我忘了;
而我也没有力气了;
你真的走了;
你真的走了
December 16, 2011
當你離開的時候
Posted in Love
我只能低著頭發呆
讓回憶滲透腦袋 漸漸變空白
我把它當作個意外 但內心還想不開
以為我明白 其實你都還在
我想起了遇見你的時候
想起你眼神中的溫柔 想起了我們第一次牽手
我閉上眼 想起當時你懷裡的顫抖
似乎那麼害怕失去我 然而到後來我什麼都沒有
當你離開的時候 我可以裝作已釋懷
他對我也算關懷 他看不出來
我知道這樣不應該 在他身上找依賴
算不算是種出賣 因為你一直在
我想起了遇見你的時候
想起你眼神中的溫柔 想起了我們第一次牽手
我閉上眼 想起當時你懷裡的顫抖
似乎那麼害怕失去我 然而到後來我什麼都沒有
當你離開的時候 我想起你親吻我的時候
想起你眼神中的沉默 想起了我們平靜地分手
我閉上眼 想起當時你每一個承諾
把你整個心都交給我 然而到後來我什麼都沒有
越是沒有你越是心痛 我想起了遇見你的時候
想起你眼神中的溫柔 想起了我們第一次牽手
我閉上眼 想起當時你懷裡的顫抖
似乎那麼害怕失去我 然而到後來我什麼都沒有
當你離開的時候
Quiet the MIND
Posted in Daily Inspirations, Love, Movies, Music
The 4 Rules to Quiet the Mind
1. Say what you mean. Mean what you say.
Part A: Say what you mean.
Have you found yourself making up excuses to avoid fully dealing with a potentially uncomfortable situation?
For example, your friend asks you to some social event. You don’t really want to go, but make up an excuse that “I can’t make it” or “I’m busy“, probably so you can quietly avoid something or someone or some activity.
Another example, someone asks you for a favor that you do not wish to comply to, but you feel guilty for rejecting him, so you either avoid that person (ie. Ignoring emails or phone calls), or create an excuse that isn’t really true (ie. I am out of town.)
It is not that you cannot do something, as your excuse suggests. The truth is that you have chosen not to do something, but the act of creating an excuse or avoiding it initiates a stir in your inner space, and it takes energy to maintain. Instead of stillness and peace, you are now holding onto and thinking about this little lingering “lie”.
When you are about to say anything, make a conscious decision to say the absolute truth, or what you actually mean. The absolute truth doesn’t have to be harsh or hurtful, you can do so compassionately and authentically, but firmly. When you own what you say, no one can reject it, even if they don’t like what they hear; because you are telling the truth and you mean it.
Have you found yourself making up excuses to avoid fully dealing with a potentially uncomfortable situation?
For example, your friend asks you to some social event. You don’t really want to go, but make up an excuse that “I can’t make it” or “I’m busy“, probably so you can quietly avoid something or someone or some activity.
Another example, someone asks you for a favor that you do not wish to comply to, but you feel guilty for rejecting him, so you either avoid that person (ie. Ignoring emails or phone calls), or create an excuse that isn’t really true (ie. I am out of town.)
It is not that you cannot do something, as your excuse suggests. The truth is that you have chosen not to do something, but the act of creating an excuse or avoiding it initiates a stir in your inner space, and it takes energy to maintain. Instead of stillness and peace, you are now holding onto and thinking about this little lingering “lie”.
When you are about to say anything, make a conscious decision to say the absolute truth, or what you actually mean. The absolute truth doesn’t have to be harsh or hurtful, you can do so compassionately and authentically, but firmly. When you own what you say, no one can reject it, even if they don’t like what they hear; because you are telling the truth and you mean it.
Part B: Mean what you say.
Sometimes we say things in passing out of obligation or habit that we don’t mean or intend on following through with. For example, we say, “I love you” to our parents or significant other when we hang up the phone, not because we mean it, but out of habit. The words comes so automatically now, that they start to lose their true meaning.
In another example, we will say, “I’ll call you soon“, “let’s chat soon“, or “I’ll call you tomorrow“. Or we offer to help, as parting words to a friend, and don’t intend on keeping that statement, but say it because it was easy and made the other person feel good.
We may think that these casual comments are harmless, but we know deep down that they are not true. They become little lies that we internalize, and over time they will develop into a guilty conscience that distracts you away from this moment.
Make a conscious commitment to yourself to mean everything that you say, and not to make empty promises that you cannot, will not, do not intend to fulfill.
2. Don’t say to anyone unless you can say to everyone.
Whether we admit to this or not, most of us love some form of gossiping (myself included). We are also quick to notice fault in others, and then talk about them with our trusted allies. Or we find out about someone’s misfortune and immediately we want to tell somebody.
I’m sure you can interject and include many examples from your life. But for sake of conversation, one example is: Jenny, at work, had an emotional fit and yelled at a co-worker today, and when we got home, we immediately told our spouse about the drama.
Another example, Pat was fired from his job, once we heard about it, we called or text-messaged our best friend Jane to tell her about it, or even exchange jokes about Pat, because we don’t like him.
In both examples, we cannot repeat the same things to everyone, especially Jenny or Pat. And if we really observed our inner space during and after we said these things, we wouldn’t feel very good in our stomach.
When we consciously observe such a conversation, we learn that we have accomplished nothing that feeds our soul. All we did was spread drama and created negative energy and inner conflict that polluted our inner space.
Make a commitment to yourself, that you will not say something to one person, unless you can announce it to the world, to everybody. Make a commitment to stop the spreading of drama and bad energy.
3. Don’t say inside, what you cannot say outside.
Most of us are extremely critical of ourselves. Because we would never tell the world what we say to ourselves, in the privacy of our mind, we believe that we are the only ones affected by negative self-talk, low self-esteem, and anxiety.
When something doesn’t go perfectly, we are first to blame ourselves, criticizing what we did wrong, what we didn’t do perfect enough, what we missed.
We all have inner chattering, but problems arise when we start to believe in our inner chattering, such that false beliefs about ourselves are formed. These false beliefs become detrimental to our spirits and future wellbeing, unless we do something to unlearn these beliefs.
Next time, you hear the voice in your head say “I’m stupid” or “I’m not good enough”or “I am a failure” or other related self-defeating thoughts, recognize that it is not you. You could verbally say, “That’s not me! That’s not true!” and even declare the following to this thought,
“From today forward, I choose to let you go, for you are no longer serving me. I am exposing you, for you are not real! From today onward, I am free from you.”
The basic premise of the third rule to inner cleanse is that, whatever thought you are not able to say out aloud to people (anyone), don’t even bother entertaining inside your head. Keep your inner space clean.
4. Don’t say unless it is true, useful or kind.
Some people have so much inner chatter that it spills out of them in the form of useless speech.
Observe the people who talk on buses, or love to chitchat at work by the water fountain. If you observe and count the number of things they say that are actually useful or truly interesting, it would be a low number.
Not only is this distracting for those around this person, it takes an enormous amount of energy for this person to keep talking. Recall the last time you talked for a long time about something random, and how drained you felt afterwards. Plus, the more useless things we say, the more useless things we feed back into our head.
If you feel that I’ve described you, don’t feel discouraged. I’ve been there too, and can contest that it is possible to quiet down.
Some people practice sabbatical days where they don’t speak at all, or read, or use the computer. And at the end of such a day, they feel a tremendous sense of peace, space and energy bubbling inside them.
Be conscious of what you say and only say it if any of the following is true:
Is what I’m saying …
True to me? An authentic statement from my heart?
Useful or helpful to someone or some situation?
Kind or compassionate? Such as a compliment, or an offer of help?
Sometimes we say things in passing out of obligation or habit that we don’t mean or intend on following through with. For example, we say, “I love you” to our parents or significant other when we hang up the phone, not because we mean it, but out of habit. The words comes so automatically now, that they start to lose their true meaning.
In another example, we will say, “I’ll call you soon“, “let’s chat soon“, or “I’ll call you tomorrow“. Or we offer to help, as parting words to a friend, and don’t intend on keeping that statement, but say it because it was easy and made the other person feel good.
We may think that these casual comments are harmless, but we know deep down that they are not true. They become little lies that we internalize, and over time they will develop into a guilty conscience that distracts you away from this moment.
Make a conscious commitment to yourself to mean everything that you say, and not to make empty promises that you cannot, will not, do not intend to fulfill.
2. Don’t say to anyone unless you can say to everyone.
Whether we admit to this or not, most of us love some form of gossiping (myself included). We are also quick to notice fault in others, and then talk about them with our trusted allies. Or we find out about someone’s misfortune and immediately we want to tell somebody.
I’m sure you can interject and include many examples from your life. But for sake of conversation, one example is: Jenny, at work, had an emotional fit and yelled at a co-worker today, and when we got home, we immediately told our spouse about the drama.
Another example, Pat was fired from his job, once we heard about it, we called or text-messaged our best friend Jane to tell her about it, or even exchange jokes about Pat, because we don’t like him.
In both examples, we cannot repeat the same things to everyone, especially Jenny or Pat. And if we really observed our inner space during and after we said these things, we wouldn’t feel very good in our stomach.
When we consciously observe such a conversation, we learn that we have accomplished nothing that feeds our soul. All we did was spread drama and created negative energy and inner conflict that polluted our inner space.
Make a commitment to yourself, that you will not say something to one person, unless you can announce it to the world, to everybody. Make a commitment to stop the spreading of drama and bad energy.
3. Don’t say inside, what you cannot say outside.
Most of us are extremely critical of ourselves. Because we would never tell the world what we say to ourselves, in the privacy of our mind, we believe that we are the only ones affected by negative self-talk, low self-esteem, and anxiety.
When something doesn’t go perfectly, we are first to blame ourselves, criticizing what we did wrong, what we didn’t do perfect enough, what we missed.
We all have inner chattering, but problems arise when we start to believe in our inner chattering, such that false beliefs about ourselves are formed. These false beliefs become detrimental to our spirits and future wellbeing, unless we do something to unlearn these beliefs.
Next time, you hear the voice in your head say “I’m stupid” or “I’m not good enough”or “I am a failure” or other related self-defeating thoughts, recognize that it is not you. You could verbally say, “That’s not me! That’s not true!” and even declare the following to this thought,
“From today forward, I choose to let you go, for you are no longer serving me. I am exposing you, for you are not real! From today onward, I am free from you.”
The basic premise of the third rule to inner cleanse is that, whatever thought you are not able to say out aloud to people (anyone), don’t even bother entertaining inside your head. Keep your inner space clean.
4. Don’t say unless it is true, useful or kind.
Some people have so much inner chatter that it spills out of them in the form of useless speech.
Observe the people who talk on buses, or love to chitchat at work by the water fountain. If you observe and count the number of things they say that are actually useful or truly interesting, it would be a low number.
Not only is this distracting for those around this person, it takes an enormous amount of energy for this person to keep talking. Recall the last time you talked for a long time about something random, and how drained you felt afterwards. Plus, the more useless things we say, the more useless things we feed back into our head.
If you feel that I’ve described you, don’t feel discouraged. I’ve been there too, and can contest that it is possible to quiet down.
Some people practice sabbatical days where they don’t speak at all, or read, or use the computer. And at the end of such a day, they feel a tremendous sense of peace, space and energy bubbling inside them.
Be conscious of what you say and only say it if any of the following is true:
Is what I’m saying …
True to me? An authentic statement from my heart?
Useful or helpful to someone or some situation?
Kind or compassionate? Such as a compliment, or an offer of help?
SOURCE: http://thinksimplenow.com/clarity/how-to-quiet-your-mind/
December 12, 2011
世界啊世界
Posted in Daily Inspirations
世界，真的很可笑。
无论你多么地努力，别人往往看为粪土。
无论你付出多么多，别人往往看为多余。
无论你了解多么多，别人完全不去理解。
无论你多么地容忍，别人终究踩上你头。
世界，真的很残忍。
无论你多么地爱她，别人只顾保护自己。
无论你多么地学习，别人还是觉得不够。
无论你多么地坚强，别人总会继续加添。
无论你如何逃避她，终究你还是要面对。
世界啊世界，我要如何了解你？
世界啊世界，你真的容不下我？
信心
Posted in Daily Inspirations
信心是在所有的
环境、
理性、
经验、
逻辑
都指向不可能的时候，
仍然
总没有因不信，
心里起疑惑，
反倒因信心，
心里得
经过考验的信心，
是否更加坚强？
这一切是否神在做安排？
难道神真的觉得我有那么强吗？
神要我学习的功课何在？
难道一直以来所听到的都是错误？
从哪里跌倒，就从哪里爬起。
希望再次爬起后的我，信心更加坚固。
加油！
December 9, 2011
NEVER
Posted in Daily Inspirations
never won any lucky draws...
never won any competitions in my 5 years architectural education...
never travelled without worrying money...
never loved...
never feel the real happiness...
this is my life...
of sadness and NEVER...
December 7, 2011
意志力这玩意儿
Posted in Daily Inspirations, Movies
刚看完 Green Lantern 这部电影，觉得蛮不错的。。。
所谓的 “青灯笼” -- 主角，能力来源取决于本身的意志力。
意志力，现在对我来说，完全是没有知觉。
反而我倒想像恶势力般放弃意志力，使用人性的恶点。
不断的期望，不断的努力，不断的付出，得到的却是拒绝再拒绝。
无论我如何努力，都找不到方向。
一方要我放弃；一方要我继续努力，无论任何困境都要忍，为了更好的未来。
但，我们真的还有未来吗？
一颗已死去的心，真的可以从新燃烧吗？从新燃烧后又真的有幸福吗？
到底我要如何？。。。
戏中主角有生命中重要的女友支持他；
现实中的我却是被生命中重要的女人所伤。。。
我可从何取得我的意志力？。。。
所谓的 “青灯笼” -- 主角，能力来源取决于本身的意志力。
意志力，现在对我来说，完全是没有知觉。
反而我倒想像恶势力般放弃意志力，使用人性的恶点。
不断的期望，不断的努力，不断的付出，得到的却是拒绝再拒绝。
无论我如何努力，都找不到方向。
一方要我放弃；一方要我继续努力，无论任何困境都要忍，为了更好的未来。
但，我们真的还有未来吗？
一颗已死去的心，真的可以从新燃烧吗？从新燃烧后又真的有幸福吗？
到底我要如何？。。。
戏中主角有生命中重要的女友支持他；
现实中的我却是被生命中重要的女人所伤。。。
我可从何取得我的意志力？。。。
December 3, 2011
S T R E S S
Posted in Daily Inspirations
STRESS! 究竟是何物？
左一句STRESS，右一句STRESS；
我完全无话可说。。。
STRESS你太强了！我佩服你！
你尽然击跨了六年的感情，
你尽然击跨了那无私的爱，
你尽然击跨了一生的计划，
你完全击跨了！
左一句STRESS，右一句STRESS；
我完全无话可说。。。
STRESS你太强了！我佩服你！
你尽然击跨了六年的感情，
你尽然击跨了那无私的爱，
你尽然击跨了一生的计划，
你完全击跨了！
